Could This Be Happening to Me?

2009: the year I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.

I was sitting in Spanish class, freshman year of high school. Out of nowhere, my heart started racing, and I was feeling flustered and suffocated. I felt my face get warm and I was blushing, but not in a good way. I felt sick to my stomach, overwhelmed and I couldn’t sit still.

What I didn’t know is that I was having a panic attack.

I left the classroom, and my friend Jamie walked me to the nurse’s office. I cried, and didn’t know what was happening to me at the time. I was able to call my dad to come get me from school and from that day forward, life wasn’t easy.

I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. I was prescribed two medications to take. One of the medications I took as needed, and the other I had to take once a day. The medicine I took once a day caused an even worse chemical imbalance in my brain, forcing my anxiety to spiral even more out of control.

I couldn’t go to any public places and could barely sit in a classroom. These places included your every day, errand-running stores such as Wegmans or Target. I would try so hard to relax and tell myself to relax and stop being “silly,” but I would begin panicking as soon as I would even enter the parking lot of a restaurant or store. This is called agoraphobia: a fear of public places. This was all because of the wrong medication. This was the new me.

What did my friends think of me? Why was this happening? I was an outgoing and fun girl, and now this? Do my parents believe me? Was I going to be able to play sports and finish high school?

…to be continued.

sbriskie

Sidnie Briskie, a born and raised Rochesterian, is a Nazareth College student. Sidnie is a communication sciences and disorders major as well as a communications and media minor. As an all-around communications lover, Sidnie loves to meet new people and talk about almost anything! On campus, Sidnie works for the technology and media service desk and is always on the go running around. Ultimately, Sidnie hopes to become a successful Speech-Language Pathologist who can change others’ lives in the future.

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